My musical ear is betraying me

Whys is it that every song that I happen to like, has some tangential similarity to what's going on in my life. This only makes things harder for me, sometimes.

When the shit hit the fan I stopped doing a lot of things, including listening to my favorite podcasts, radio shows, and music. It took a long time to want to listen to anything, so I started listening to the radio again, for music. It was something I hadn't done in a while, because I didn't like the stuff on the radio. I've been so against it. My wife has been the one to keep up with the new music and had asked me if I liked the new so and so on the so and so station. My answer was always no.

Now I've been more open to new music, and have been exploring new bands, new songs. I've also been going through my collection that I've archived over the years, digitally, and picked out my favorite songs. Being somewhat of a closet musician, the songs that I picked out were ones that always stood out to me musically. I've never been one to sit down and really listen to the lyrics, the music always came first.

As I've been listening to these songs, I found that they all deal with relationships in some form or another. I try to push through them like I normally would unconsciously but the lyrics just hang around this time. This was earlier on but there were old songs that I'd hear in the car alone that would come close to bringing me to tears. I had to stop listening to those for a while.

I'm able to see them in a whole new light now, and I can listen to them and appreciate them more. I have started listening to my old podcasts again. It's not like it used to be. I can start to laugh at/with them from time to time, and that's important.....being able to start laughing again, because it has been a long time.

Someone said, I think it was Steve......"Spring will always follow winter". This winter has been too long.

I'm currently hung up on the Face to Face album, "Ignorance is Bliss", and Neon Trees, "Habits". More specifically their song "Love and Affection". Great song.